I was looking for something the other day and tucked in a manila folder in my drawer was all of my saved illustrations, covers and paper dolls from Mary Englebreit’s Home Companion Magazine. I loved that magazine so much. Did you read it too? I was so sad when they stop publishing it but I am happy I’ve held onto these. I wish I held onto the magazines too. I plan to frame the above piece because it is so simple yet so important to remember and practice plus the illustration is just so cute. I have been thinking about that simple phrase, Inquire Within, a lot. How often do we feel like we need to take advice without really checking in with ourselves to see if it truly feels right? We second guess ourselves. It’s so easy to do. “They” must know the right way. “They” have it all figured out. How easy it is to forget that no one truly has it all figured out.
I used that phrase in one of my days of the 100 day project. And I kept thinking about it. The truth is I’m not enjoying the project as much as I’d hoped. I’m not sure it it feels confining or I’m not structured enough or I’m just not enjoying creating the art for it or the results I’m getting. Maybe it is the feeling like I have to post even if I don’t like the results. Whatever it is, it isn’t bringing joy. I did the above painting last night and I cropped out the quote I painted “Find What Feels Good”. Adriene Mishler taught me that. She teaches Yoga With Adriene on Youtube and several days a week since January 1 I’ve practiced yoga with her. I love it and I love the mantra. It’s perfect for yoga and for life. If it isn’t feeling good try something else. Switch things up. Inquire Within. I wrote in my journal this morning that I was going to stop the project. Why does it make me feel like a failure? No one will care and it is a project that is supposed to be fun as well as challenging but somehow I feel like I’m giving up. It doesn’t mean I won’t be creating art that I hope will convey hope and healing (for me and you) it just means I won’t be needing to complete it every single day and share it. Maybe you can relate. And if there is something that you are unsure of don’t forget to inquire within. You probably already know the answer.